"I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone." (Javan)

Thursday, 26 November 2009

My Melancholy and My Joy

I hate it when kids or teenagers expect you to stop for them:

1) in a mall while you are walking along a crowded aisle, or
2) driving along a school zone on the road,

by raising their hands with palms up straight at you!

Where did they learn to do this?! Those days pedestrians cross roads courteously and they usually show the indication to STOP or just to slow down when they are walking an elderly, a blind person or young children. Even then their hands were raised to only waist level.

But these kids or teenagers nowadays just do it in your face. Like "whatever then rolls eyes" kind of attitude. Pests! I hate to say this too but so happen these kids are of a certain skin colour. I could not help but feel rather racial and want to look down on them regardless of their social status. I really wonder if their parents ever thought them anything about manners. Wait. That was redundant.

Imagine, I am carrying a tray of food looking for a seat, and this kid just purposefully stops in front of me, gives me that hand and some 'smack me' kind of look and then walks away. I was stunned for a moment but woke up and just let out under my breath "you're supposed to say excuse me". I was very sure that child's family saw just what happened as I felt their eyes on me. I do not give a rat's ass though people. If I could I would show you my hand on your kid's face.

Yes, I am annoyed. It is one of those days where flies and mosquitoes would avoid me. Probably because I am having PMS and that the awesome rainy and gloomy weather decided to move elsewhere knowing full well that some of us love the cool air after it rains. Damn it.

***

A couple of weeks back my colleagues and I were treated to AUTHENTIC (I have to emphasize this) Chettinad and South Indian cuisine lunch all the way in the City. Located in Lebuh Ampang we met up with the host, one of our lecturers at Betel Leaf. We had to go upstairs as the ground floor of the shophouse was undergoing renovation. Upon entering the restaurant, we were greeted with many beautiful framed pictures, copper and brass statuettes and carvings (which were for sale by the way) and friendly staff. Being there for the first time our host ordered the 'specials' for us while we chatted away.

The food arrived some time after, as there were a lot of other customers that day. Nevertheless, the aroma of the dishes that were placed before us soon got our minds off the waiting. There was Gobi/Gobee (fried cauliflower kind of dish), Tikka Masala (seasoned chicken) with mint sauce (it was so green!), some chicken curry like dish, Sambal Prawns, Cheese Naan and Briyani Rice.

The first couple of bites were unforgettable. It tasted so good, my eyes teared. No kidding. No doubt I smiled the whole time while savouring every bite of the food before me. Some of the dishes such as the prawn and chicken curry were a little spicy while some like the Tikka Masala and cauliflower were not. The cauliflower was rather sweet. Yet it went very well with the rice. I love it that in all these dishes, you could taste the sweet, salty, sour and bitter all at once, thanks to the number of spices and condiments that were added to the food. The Cheese Naan on the other hand was fluffy. Yes you read that right. It was no greasy nor burnt either. Pretty good.

Later, most of us felt rather 'high'' with laughter and made a lot of noise. Realising this, our host got our attention and informed us of a 'secret' ingredient in the Briyani Rice. Apparently, we had taken 'drugs'. I had to laugh when he mentioned that the so called secret ingredient was poppy seed powder. It was unfortunate however, most of my colleagues did not know what poppy seeds were let alone the joke. It was later when I explained to them that poppy seeds came from poppy flowers, and the same flowers were used a long time ago to make opium.

"Ohhhhh.."

At the end of the meal, the host recommended Masala Tea. He said that it would help with digestion, clears the 'drug' and the feeling of fullness in the stomach. The said tea was actually spiced black tea with milk. I shared some with my colleagues and it was a delight! Firstly, I am used to drinking ginger tea and this Masala Tea had ginger, cinnamon powder and some other kinds of spice and condiments usually used for cooking. That was quite different and I like to try new things that do not sound gross. Secondly, it had fresh milk which I love in my teas. To add more joy to this experience, it came in a metal cup and saucer. I love novelty so the whole thing was perfect. I happily finished my tea :)

My two younger colleagues opinioned it was nice too but they gave up after awhile. The young girl whom we knew all the while that she loves to drink English tea with milk also said, she was not used to it. The other one, who claimed to be a big fan of tea and was showing off how much he liked tea in general, could not come to finish it. Well my friend, I guess from this experience you were only a fan of oriental tea (Chinese tea and Japanese green tea). I chose to remain quiet and let him off the hook due to his age. If not I would have openly blasted him for his attention seeking behaviour. Grow up already. It ain't cool.

Oops, I just got annoyed again. Let me retract some of this "dislike towards young loud mouth smart alecs who think they know everything and think they have done a lot of things in life just because they have gone overseas to study for a year and trying to get my attention" feeling. Ahem ahem.

Overall, the lunch treat was really good. I was so satisfied with this first experience of mine I bragged to my mum and decided that we will definitely be going there again some other time. It was from this experience also, I do not think I am able to look at or eat in the case, Cheese Naan or Tikka Masala the same way.

***

The same weekend, I went with Z to piggywiggy's second gown trying for her wedding in December. Her mum and her bestie were there too and her fiancee of course. It was more relaxed and much easier to find the gowns this time around. However, it was harder to decide on which gowns were more appropriate for each session of the day. Nevertheless, it was really great that we actually agreed on one very sweet and pretty night gown. It was 'YES' on the first try :)

After the gown trying, Z and I went to Tropicana City Mall to look for dinner dresses as well as clothing items to match the theme for the morning session of piggywiggy's wedding day. After walking around a bit, I managed to find an evening dress which was dark purple. I was afraid that it would be a bit revealing with the thin straps and low criss-crossed bodice. Surprisingly, it was not. But to be on the safe side I might just put on a tubetop on the wedding. It was not expensive either. Unfortunately, when I showed it to my mum later that day she said it looked like a negligee. I just hope I do not make a scene at the wedding then. LOL.

After the shopping session, Z and I had a good talk over dinner. It happened that the both of us have not had Kenny Rogers for a long time. So it was really enjoyable both the meal and the company.

***

Recently, I had to attend an English Placement Test for staff by the HR Department. I was surprised at first but went ahead anyway. It was a one hour test and a couple of days later, I was given the results. I had 44/50 marks. Yet I have to attend Intermediate English classes starting 1st of December. Why?!

***

Christmas is coming. My intention of getting a new Christmas Tree has been fulfilled. Now the more difficult part is to find the time to decorate it. We took out the old box of trinkets and ornaments to fill up the tree. Unfortunately, there were some pieces that were either turning yellow or broken. So we may have to get new ones from the looks of it. Let us see how it goes.

Until then, wishing all my readers the best of luck in preparation for weddings, year end holidays, Christmas and rushing to complete your work or tasks at hand prior the long holidays!

Friday, 6 November 2009

Christmas is Coming!

By next month I will be packed with work and celebrations. I must make conscious effort to bring my camera along to capture those important moments. But most importantly to also enjoy the moments at they come.

So far, work has been pacing quite well. Making the effort to not let myself be stressed when there is not a need to, and of course when there is a situation. But sometimes I actually worry when I do not really have challenging work to do. Would this become normal as compared to the job at the previous department? I do not know. I am slightly daunted with the idea that once I get comfortable, I would not be able to handle a situation that is out of my little box.

Which reminds me, I have been relocated to another cubicle. I am now closer to the rest of my colleagues and away from the really cold zone. I say that because one of two assistant managers I have, loves a cold office. She sets the temperature at 16 degrees celcius at high fan speed. Previously I happen to sit within this zone, exactly inside the four 'walls' of the centralised unit. Brrr.

So now, being away from it I do not have to worry about catching colds and flexing frozen fingers. Interestingly, there is a pillar just at the end of the partition making it part of the cubicle wall. Due to this, the walk way into my cubicle is narrower. Plus I arranged my workstation in such a way, it is U-shaped with the desk in front of me, a long side table and a cabinet behind me. I have aptly named this workspace my Cube-y Hole. It just lacks some pillows and a blanket. ROFL.

I am going to personalise it soon. Unfortunately I do not have the ideas yet as I am now 'busy' with all the coming events, outings and celebrations. Roadshows and Open Days, a couple or so birthdays, a couple of weddings to attend and Christmas, are the things occupying my mind. On top of that, I have also been planning to get a car of my own, looking at replacing a really broken but temporarily fixed handphone, plans to purchase the original Windows 7 at a discounted price, shopping for dress(es), prepping the current condition of my hair for a new hairdo, purchase a new Christmas tree and setting it up, and thinking of ideas for Christmas presents too.

How excitingly busy. But I am so enjoying all these *smiling with glee*. So looking forward to Christmas. I am already thinking of the colour scheme for the new family Christmas tree. I think I am ready for it. Are you? :)

Thursday, 22 October 2009

What Am I Thinking...?

While waiting for the food to be prepared on Cafe World, and seeing my blog looking so miserable with nothing new, I thought I could write something.

So I am thinking out loud what I want to write about.

But I have not anything to talk about.

No, I am not in a real cafe waiting for food. It is one of those games in Facebook. You spend a big amount of time waiting for something to happen while you do some other stuff. They call it time management. They call it multi-tasking. You still wait. After awhile I just give up. Like Restaurant City. I think collecting stuff or materials in WoW sounds more exciting all of a sudden.

Wait.

So I changed my mind.

I will stick to the girlie stuff. Though when I think about girlie games, in my opinion, I am reminded of games for or the actual PSP or Nintendo DS. In which case I have no interest in. Come to think of it, I do not have a good reason why.

So scrap that.

Okay I think I prefer games that have fast multi-tasking time management. Like Diner Dash or Farm Frenzy. But those are almost no brainers.

So I am an idiot for saying.

I think I need some form of escapism since we are at it. And when I think about it, it is either reading, watching TV or shopping. Now that is girlie *wink*

Crap. The Chips and Guacamole just went bad.

Great. I still do not have anything creative or constructive to talk about. I guess that means I have many things of the real world on my mind that are hindering me from writing. I am unable to 'escape' from them and pour out my creative thoughts here where I write to only satisfy myself and not care if a soul out there reads this.

I think the next best thing is to put up pictures to enhance this post.

But I have not been taking any pictures either.

Back to square one.

Gah.

Saturday, 3 October 2009

When There Isn't Anything Else Better To Do...

The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
Gilbert Keith Chesterton

Truly loving another means letting go of all expectations. It means full acceptance, even celebration of another's personhood.
Karen Casey

We were given: Two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.
UNKNOWN

Sympathy constitutes friendship; but in love there is a sort of antipathy, or opposing passion. Each strives to be the other, and both together make up one whole.
Samuel Taylor Coleridge

Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition.
Alexander Smith

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made in love.
1 John 4:18, the Bible

Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction.
Antoine de Saint-Exupery

A mighty pain to love it is, and 'tis a pain that pain to miss; but of all the pains, the greatest pain is to love, but love in vain.
Abraham Crowley

There is no pain equal to that which two lovers can inflict on one another. This should be made clear to all who contemplate such a union. The avoidance of this pain is the beginning of wisdom, for it is strong enough to contaminate the rest of our lives.
Cyril Connolly

No man is worth your tears, and when you find the man who is, he'll never make you cry.
UNKNOWN

In this life we cannot do great things. We can only do small things with great love.
Mother Theresa

A woman has got to love a bad man once or twice in her life to be thankful for a good one.
Mae West

Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, but do so with all your heart.
Marcus Aurelius

Everybody can be great because anybody can serve. You don't have to have a college degree to serve. You don't have to make your subject and verb agree to serve. You only need a heart full of grace. A soul generated by love.
Martin Luther King

A bowl of vegetables with someone you love is better than steak with someone you hate.
Proverbs 15:17, the Bible

The one who loves least controls the relationship.
UNKNOWN

Love just doesn't just sit there, like a stone, it has to be made like bread, remade all the time, made new.
Ursula Kroeber Le Guin

One heartbreak is like a thousand lessons. Loving again is learning them.
Sandra McKendry

Romantic love is an illusion. Most of us discover this truth at the end of a love affair or else when the sweet emotions of love lead us into marriage and then turn down their flames.
Thomas Moore

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.
Anais Nin

When we lose one we love, our bitterest tears are called forth by the memory of hours when we love not enough.
Maurice Maeterlinck

Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is
essential to your own.
Robert Heinlein

Love is being stupid together.
Paul Valery

If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back they'd never ask you to.
ANONYMOUS

Hate leaves ugly scars, love leaves beautiful ones.
Mignon McLaughlin

...let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.
1 John 3:18, the Bible

Love is always open arms. If you close your arms about love you will find that you are left holding only yourself.
Leo Buscaglia

Love, you know, seeks to make happy rather than to be happy.
Ralph Connor

You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
Sam Keen

To love someone deeply gives you strength. Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage.
Lao Tzu

It is the things in common that make relationships enjoyable, but it is the little differences that make them interesting.
Todd Ruthman

The choicest thing this world has for a man is affection.
Josiah Gilbert Holland

...A simple I love you means more than money.
Frank Sinatra

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.
Elizabeth Barrett Browning

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, thats her...
UNKNOWN

The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.
Shawna Waltemyer

Don't let someone become your everything, because when they're gone you have nothing!
Kenya Mitchell

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime.
Bette Davis

If you judge people, you have no time to love them.
Mother Theresa

I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi or even smile at me because I know, even if its just for a second, that I've crossed your mind.
UNKNOWN

Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves.
Henri Frederic Amiel

Love is a promise, love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear.
John Lennon

Do not think that love in order to be genuine has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired. Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.
Mother Theresa

The bravest thing that men do is love women.
Moht Sahl

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it.
Thomas Fuller

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
1 Corinthians 13:1-7, the Bible

Friday, 25 September 2009

Twittering

9:00 am - wooo...arrive at the office on time. No traffic! Wahhhhhh!

9:05 am - hungry -__-

9: 06 am - la la la la~ oops. wrong password. thought how funny it is that today i did not open my facebook first right after opening the company email. Har!

9:09 am - staring at pile of papers on table. flip flip flip. move move move. open drawers. shuffle shuffle shuffle. bleh. what was i doing again?

9: 23 am - nature calling

9:25 am - damn hungry. see what i need to do first. oh yeah. fuck. 4 tasks to complete. must remember to print the design and bring home. wooo...can't wait.

9:33 am - fucking hungry man. must go already.

9:40 am - Om nom nom nom...butter bun. Eee...quite greasy lorr. Teh tarik kurang manis. (silence)

9:42 am - looking at Meebo. The person(s) i want to chat with are not online. Thinking about my gfs going to have a ball in Bangkok soon. Why i am i here ar?

9:45 am - Tappity tappity tap tap tap. Read read read. Flip flip flip. Tappity tappity tap tap tap away.

9:50 am - just told by colleague that my boss wanted him to assist me in my attempts at completing the task by today. Gee...how nice of the boss. Pooit.

9:51 am - thought of writing these thoughts on Blogger as though it's Twitter. LOL.

9:59 am - this is cool. i wanna go gym. nature calling round two. ergh...wait wait

10:01 am - long sip of teh tarik. (silence)

10:05 am - okay go go go

10:16 am - wtf did i ate last night?! oh. yeah. dragon fruit. eh heh.

10:16 am - and i said romeo save me they're tryin to tell me how to feel is this in my head something something something oh is this is in my head something something pulled out a ring and said marry me juliet you never have to be alone i love you and that's all i really know i talked to your dad go get yourself a white dress it's a love story baby just say yes oh oh....oh oh we were both young when i first saw you. whee...

10:31 am - left comment on bro's facebook thread. LOL!

10:43 am - Fatt sun king! Long time no use

10: 49 am - thinking about Japanese breakfast...damn it. eggs...eggs...aik. udon in the picture!

11:35am - wonder what my name is in Japanese. Hmm....

12:16 pm - tapau!

1:10 pm - Dry Pan Me. Awesome! Bleh. continue work

1:43 pm - Yay! Level 23. Aik...cannot hire anymore. Damn

2:42 pm - lifting weights by carrying a stack of study materials. Need to do some workout on the back today. Roar!

3:31 pm - Yay! Pneo's online <3 finally...

4:14 pm - meh

4:20 pm -bitching to my colleague about the old lady sitting at the front. can't stand her. everything she does gets to my nerves. and i just remembered one incident that is so icky. YUCK! she made coffee for the boss and she taste-tested it. later she added stuff to the same drink and used the same spoon to stir and taste-test again! argh!

4:45 pm - yummy! Seremban xiu pao... ^_^

5:13 pm - OMG. I finally finished the task. can go home soon! and go gym!

5:49 pm - what the...they bleeped "beer" from Beyonce's If I Were A Boy on the radio

6:54 pm - gym time! shit. left the padlock in another bag. how ar?

6: 59 pm - Used my spectacles to "lock" the locker. i so smat

7:55 pm - Hmm...don't see Pneo and Tatsumaki. Wonder if they're still playing the game...

8:02 pm - sms from Pneo said they just arrived. okay...i'll enjoy my shower then

9:00pm > - found Pneo and Tatsumaki at the towel counter.
- off to dinner at KFC.
- hmmm...wonder what the Cheezie Chickeroni is like? Aww...no Jelly Ice Cream, shucks.
- The Chickeroni is "Eeee". Making my own would have been tastier.

11:01 pm - just took measurements for the dress making. hope i'm doing it right. Pneo is still at it. Don't know how much longer i can take this... but only 2 more days to go though...boleh lar

11:27 pm - tomorrow need to work. better to sleep soon.

11:33 pm -Roger Out.